62 days to go!!
Holaaaa!! So here I am, ready for a wonderful week!!! Recovery week!!! So I think my injury is taking another direction. Or maybe I am actually getting better! Who knows? Now I have to use more heat pads, but I have less tingling sensation and my afternoons are less annoying, so that’s a positive. My lower back gets a little stiff after a long workout, so I do my never ending stretches, then right after I ice it and heat it, then I apply some refreshing Ben-gay, Icy Hot or the one Juana (my acupuncturist) gave me that’s natural. Yeah, I smell like an arthritic old woman! Hey, whatever works, right? Perhaps the acupuncture is actually doing something; I’d like to think that! So this weekend I did my ever first 100 miles on the bike!! I’m telling you, what a milestone!! It was a rough day, heavy wind, so heavy you could see tree branches bend! Every time I felt tail wind I kept thinking, “the head wind is gonna suck on the way back!” Of course, my group began riding at 21 mph, which for me is hard to maintain, much less in such distance, so I was ok having them dropping me. I was being pulled by my riding angel Kike, but after a while Coach Evil told him to go, and he stayed with me. Boy was I glad!! The wind was rough, so the pulling was much appreciated! I felt bad, because Frank (aka Coach Evil) stayed at a pace I could follow without killing myself. I know is a cliché, but truly is mind over body! Your body starts breaking down. My cooch started hurting, then my back was tired, then I got cramps in my toes. I didn’t know whether to ride aero or not.
So I was happy to see after 6 long hours I was done with my work out! Or was I? I still had to run the brick! So yes, I ran 40 minutes right after! I think that was more mentally painful than the ride! I couldn’t put one foot in front of the next, so I had to kick it Galloway style. I began running for 3 minutes, walking for one minute, so it wasn’t that excruciating. I just wanted to be over!!! Needless to say, I took a 3 hr nap, and ate a big wrap from Off the Grille!!
The only thing that kept me going is to keep reminding yourself why you’re doing this….but after 85 miles you ask yourself, wait a minute, why the hell am I doing this?
Monday, September 20, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
train, pray, and the game face
69 days to go!
Well, it has been kind of an off week. I got sick for like three days, which totally threw my training off balance. The mileage is starting to add up, but not overwhelmingly. Although my Sunday ride was disastrous. Just when I thought, “damn, I’m feeling stronger, I’m kicking ass!” I woke up with a stiff back, so I was concerned whether or not this was one of those symptoms before my disc goes completely to shit, and then I thought I was doing 5 hrs, 19 mph. Instead, they went MUCH faster and only 4 hrs. I don’t expect to have anybody babysitting me, much less when we ride, and I also know my limitations, but if I knew that, I would’ve done something different. I know when to push myself, and when to sit it down. I wasn’t feeling well enough to attempt to haul ass for that amount of time after not training due to a nasty cold. So my friend stayed behind with me (thx Kike!). I don’t mind staying behind, but I didn’t feel safe riding Biscayne Blvd. Needless to say, I have no desire in EVER riding to Hollywood again! The roads are ridiculously bumpy, there’s much less respect for the cyclist, I don’t know, I was just plain pissed the whole way!!
So I don’t think the disc is getting better at all. It frustrates me, because here I am, twice a day, stretching like crazy and nothing feels different, at all! Every day, I get up in the morning and the tingling sensation says to me “yep, I’m still here!” I sit, it tingles, I get up it tingles, I sit too long, you guessed it. I obligate myself to get up often during the day, so by 6pm I don’t get that pain that is just plain annoying, from the hamstring to the side calf. I cant even go to visit my friends up north without having to stop the car about 4-5 times to walk it off.
I’m still going to the acupuncturist; I’d like to think is helping somehow, that maybe after a couple of visits it will fully heal, but really, no difference. So I do yoga, I stretch, acupuncture, I did special anti inflammatories (Aleve works better, can you believe it?), hell, I even did a damn epidural that did not even tickle the damn hernia, and the bitches charged me over $300, so let’s add insult to injury, literally! I’m just not too positive today. I’m just a little sick and tired of this feeling. I cry sometimes because I don’t know what else to do, then I remember those who are impaired or injured and can’t do any, or any of the 6 people in my life who are battling cancer and chemo is kicking their ass, so I feel sad. Then I get mad because I can’t even bitch about it not even for a second without someone telling me how half full my glass is and how I should remember unfortunate others are.! Coño, we need to let it out sometimes!! So there, I’m done with the bitchin, back to my glass full life.
Back to my training so I get stronger, to my praying so my disc gets better every day, and to my “Bring it on Bitches!” attitude, God knows I need it. Man, I'm in such a dire need of good news....
Well, it has been kind of an off week. I got sick for like three days, which totally threw my training off balance. The mileage is starting to add up, but not overwhelmingly. Although my Sunday ride was disastrous. Just when I thought, “damn, I’m feeling stronger, I’m kicking ass!” I woke up with a stiff back, so I was concerned whether or not this was one of those symptoms before my disc goes completely to shit, and then I thought I was doing 5 hrs, 19 mph. Instead, they went MUCH faster and only 4 hrs. I don’t expect to have anybody babysitting me, much less when we ride, and I also know my limitations, but if I knew that, I would’ve done something different. I know when to push myself, and when to sit it down. I wasn’t feeling well enough to attempt to haul ass for that amount of time after not training due to a nasty cold. So my friend stayed behind with me (thx Kike!). I don’t mind staying behind, but I didn’t feel safe riding Biscayne Blvd. Needless to say, I have no desire in EVER riding to Hollywood again! The roads are ridiculously bumpy, there’s much less respect for the cyclist, I don’t know, I was just plain pissed the whole way!!
So I don’t think the disc is getting better at all. It frustrates me, because here I am, twice a day, stretching like crazy and nothing feels different, at all! Every day, I get up in the morning and the tingling sensation says to me “yep, I’m still here!” I sit, it tingles, I get up it tingles, I sit too long, you guessed it. I obligate myself to get up often during the day, so by 6pm I don’t get that pain that is just plain annoying, from the hamstring to the side calf. I cant even go to visit my friends up north without having to stop the car about 4-5 times to walk it off.
I’m still going to the acupuncturist; I’d like to think is helping somehow, that maybe after a couple of visits it will fully heal, but really, no difference. So I do yoga, I stretch, acupuncture, I did special anti inflammatories (Aleve works better, can you believe it?), hell, I even did a damn epidural that did not even tickle the damn hernia, and the bitches charged me over $300, so let’s add insult to injury, literally! I’m just not too positive today. I’m just a little sick and tired of this feeling. I cry sometimes because I don’t know what else to do, then I remember those who are impaired or injured and can’t do any, or any of the 6 people in my life who are battling cancer and chemo is kicking their ass, so I feel sad. Then I get mad because I can’t even bitch about it not even for a second without someone telling me how half full my glass is and how I should remember unfortunate others are.! Coño, we need to let it out sometimes!! So there, I’m done with the bitchin, back to my glass full life.
Back to my training so I get stronger, to my praying so my disc gets better every day, and to my “Bring it on Bitches!” attitude, God knows I need it. Man, I'm in such a dire need of good news....
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